Keeping the faith
Always a nervous time before the scans and this time was no different. I wonder when that changes. Honestly I don't think about having cancer all that often...only every day. But seriously, I forget sometimes, when I feel good, when I have the energy and will to do the things I used to do, when I think of another festival to sign up for or another art project to undertake.
Then a pang of pain, an overly tired day...then I think of it. Never mind that the pain may be from splitting wood (a bad habit I have) or the tired day arrives after a day of trimming trees or working in the studio. Never mind, it's the cancer, I know it's back...or is it? Silly me!
Keeping the faith is the toughest part but giving up is not an option, never will be. I remember I said that to myself once.
|Chin up, all smiles!|
The scan the scan the scan showed a stable state, totally unchanged from last six months; if anything, a tiny bit shrunken and weaker than last time. The snake is small now, not quite so scary. I am blessed with too much energy and too many projects in mind. No more Christmas tree lights in my spine, nothing in the original site, nothing but a couple of tiny nodes. Bones recovering, rebuilding slowly, my entire body fighting. I get the "fight" thing now.